one night, when you're laying in your bed, just sit there and think. think about how you've gotten to the point at which you are in your life. its...pretty crazy.

oh, and theres this boy that i really like. he's pretty much the most amazing boy i've met so far in my life.  haha...and i just recently found out he has a xanga...and i read all his entries. i call him BOY[X] (i hope u get the reference).

*muah

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3 months have passed since the last time i've checked up on this thingamajig.

life's not horrible, but it could use some improvement. my best friends are kind of...assholes, considering the fact that it feels as if they don't really enjoy spending time with me (and avoid calling me). and i still lack the ability to drive. but HEY! i'm going to college (in ATL), i'm getting HOPE (more than likely), i have a room/roommate for next year, max and i have been going out w/ 9 months (as of 35 minutes ago), i have a job, and i'm slightly more tan! YAY!! ...to be cont.

wow...it has been..a WHILE!!!

i really need to stop overdramatizign shit on xanga. i just read my old blogs and laugh at how pathetic i am. tis prolly b/c i was really emotional at the time and all that. anyhoo...max and i are nearing 6 months....actually...in an hour itll be our 6 month anniv. crazy, eh? to be honest, i did not see us going past 2 months. HA! he's a sweetheart. still my best friend and closest confidante, although...i suppose some feelings have evolved into a deeper level of affection. let us not mention that four letter word (not fuck, piss, shit, or cunt...the other one) but i think sooner or later it would get to that point. and yeah...im a wee bit scared about being so vulnerable, but i also hope that it'd be worth it. i hope that this one might actually last past a year...maybe. if not, eh...fuck it. ive been known to move on (quite fast might i add) but yeah...i'm not gonna pretend that im not deeply attached to my significant other. b/c i am...i really am. i've probably lost my mind. i'm still extremely jealous but i try to control it...somewhat, and i still get pissed at him ALL THE FUCKING TIME B/C HES A FUCKING IDIOT!!! but it's cute...and im adjusting well i suppose.  

besides that....GSU next year! need to fill out FAFSA, find an appartment+roomies, find a job, and most of all, learn how to drive!!!

again, besides THAT, school sucks my cock as always, i only have dina and paulina to rely on at duluth, max in atl, kat in buford, britton in....sdfnskjf, taylor in valdosta, and of course....castro still in fucking tampa. but im going to see her from the 9th-12th and then shes coming up here for spring break! YAY!!! fucking snazzy! im fucknig excited about this month...despite still being stuck in the hellhole that is duluth (again...exaggerating. but how can i not whe  atl is SOOOO much prettier and awesomer!).

i am....done...for now...byez!